Connection

Loving your friends is the best thing you could do for them. Great friends are hard to come by. Friendship is not something that’s just purely physical we live in the age where a connection is beyond our wildest dreams. Humans have done what we have always wanted to do. Connect to the next level.

Since the dawn of time we have, wanted to be part of something, something bigger than ourselves, be part of something bigger. And deep down I think we will. The internet has played a massive role in this. The thing is I’m going back to the start, I’m going back to where two people wanting to be with each other and be more; then create more. This is our start. Our start to be something bigger, call it reproducing to save our species or an act of God or just us longing for the warmth of “We are not alone”. Whatever you put it down to, it part of our souls to be.

People say that our internet connection is what connects us, yes this is true, it’s faster but we’ve always had done it without the whole technology thing. Because first and foremost our true essence of us will always find a way to connect, whether it’s travelling long distances, phoning them, writing a letter to them or just simply talking to them. A connection is stronger than anything else. We all have strings and those strings connect us to many people. When we do leave them physically they are still part of our beings and we learn from them. From the past experience we move on to the next level. So, we connect to the next level with another, surrounded by boundless waves of being. And then we start to love, we start to love on all levels because we are part of something bigger than us. For it is “WE”.

Forgiving Your Mother; For Your Future

I’m forgiving my Mother. I need to do it. I need to do it, for I want a future. A future that is bright with happiness. I have lived in the darkness for so long, that I my eyes are only suited for the darkness. But that’s not me. I am a person that loves the light, yet I see dark.

Everyone that knows me personally would understand that I have a bad history with my parents; this is not an uncommon thing to hear. In fact lots of people are currently going through and living this. It is really easy to not to forgive the trespasses that your parental units have dealt you. And it’s really easy to run away from them and live on the other side of the world and have an itinerant lifestyle. Boy, it is fun doing this, truly it is.

What happens when you see everyone happy? And they have their act together? But don’t you have your act together? Nope, you don’t! The past is controlling you, in the now and future. I don’t like that the fact my past hurt is controlling my future happiness. I want to be happy, like? So I’ve decided to forgive her. Okay, I’ve not actually said the words, but I’m building the relationship that I she burnt down. It’s hard work. It’s painful work, yet I know it will be worth it.

So now you are telling me, “Why, should you do all of the hard work. Why should you take the first steps, shouldn’t she and crawl back to you?” well no! It should be me. I’m younger, I will live longer. My future hasn’t even started yet, hers has; its half way and nearly done. See? It’s me that has to start. I’m talking about my life here.  I want is happiness. And that means biting my tongue and doing the hard work. You see when you think about it, it’s not about forgiving her and letting her have her past action get a pardon. It’s more than that. You are building your future; you’re future relationships of the future. She is your start in life and now you have to complete it; by going back to the start.