Road Maps and I Can't Read'em

I can’t read road maps, yes, it’s true. All my life I could not read one.  I went to great schools but it was something that I could not pick up.  And my mother did not find this out till I was 25 years old.

Here is a quick story of how my mother found out I could not read a map.  We were in the car and we had to go somewhere out of our comfort zone area.  So she went as far as she could, till she needed a map to guide her.  Since she was driving, I had to read the map for her.  The map for  Sydney is a giant text book with hundreds of maps inside of it.  I did my best to guide her..Er.. Left, Right...Um... wait I have to flick to page 230... Now turn left here.  We ended up at a school with a no through road sign.  We were meant to be at a shopping Mall.

My mother of course, flipped out and started screaming because we were running late and blah, blah, blah.  And then once she cooled down she asked me where we were on the map and where is the direction I was trying to lead. She started to go crazy on me! Because what I was pointing to was highways and railway lines, not roads. She turned around me and said, “can you read maps”, okay maybe that was more of a shout.  I did not have to say anything it was written on my face.  

As you can imagine my mother was giving me a quick lesson on “how to read a Map!” With in a space of 2 minutes, all whilst; muttering to herself about how I the school systems have let us down.  But seriously it’s not their fault, it’s something I can’t do. So there you go. At 25 I could not read a map, now at 29 I can, just barely. Well, at least I know how to tell what is a road and whats not a road.

Yeah, I am on a road; not a track.

Learning

There is a few crazy things going on; it means it times let go. If too many things are just pushing you out of the way, listen.  If things are constantly pushing you in the way, figure out what is the lesson you must learn.

Don’t waste your time on people don’t want you, there are others who want you.  Like me, my doors are always open. WIDE OPEN, the key is under the mat for you.  I will tell you my funniest story and you will mock me on how silly I am.  I don’t care, I just care about you.  So if things are crazy, who cares, they are meant to be.  We are creatures who are here to learn, if we don’t learn we don’t accomplish. You get it.

Right now I am learning things the hard and long way.  I have moved from country to country looking for something, what is that something.  PAUSE......  Hell, I don’t know what it is exactly but I decided to do the right thing, went back to school and started to build real friendships. You know accomplishing things.  And you know what? I have learnt a lot of things myself and really creating a new happy beginnings.  Should I have done this a long time ago, maybe but then I would not  be here talking to you with my experiences would I?

I love my life, it is crazy, I have cried a lot because I did not listen or learn, but boy I am doing it now.  I am closing my eyes taking a deep breath and listening.